No more screeches or humming noises.
I’m happy to say that I am a FORMER tinnitus sufferer thank goodness.
The problem is that Now I HEAR VOICES filling in where the random musical tones used to be.
It’s not what you’re thinking. I’m not crazy, I don’t think there’s a radio in my head.
But everyday without fail I hear SNIPPETS of songs. Since i no longer enjoy listening to music (hearing aids ruin music, it rattles and echoes and reverberates thru my brain), these tunes must be dredged up from decades ago. There has to be some mechanism THAT CHOOSES which tune I hear.
Everyday it’s a new snippet. But I’m clueless who or what decides what the song of the day will be. A lot of times it’s a sad song like today all day it’s been Longgg lonesome river. It starts as soon as my day starts, sometimes before I get out of bed.
Sometimes the tune is unfamiliar so i eventually do a search on you tube. Depending on how accurately I’ve transcribed what I Think I heard, I might figure out the name of the song. Maybe there’s a clogged buffer or cache where all sorts of random tunes get stuck until death wipes the slate and/or our minds clean.
The snippet can be quite detailed. Often it will have a full scale orchestra / soundtrack of the original just as I heard it “whenever”. I don’t recall hearing today’s mournful sound byte, but i must’ve heard it somewhere/sometime.
Sometimes snippets are very emotional/sad songs like the movie GHOST with Demi Moore and (was it Patrick Swayze)? Selections like that can be a real downer affecting my mood the rest of the day.
A very few times it might be something cute like HOW MUCH IS THAT DOGGY IN THE WINDOW but that one made me sad; it brought back memories of the sweetest little black dog I had that was taken away from the yard and it wasn’t like her to wander off.
Sometimes it’s just words in a sort of singsong voice made up of just 3 or 4 words. THE VOICE AND THE SINGER ARE ALWAYS MALE.
It must come from me, the choice of song. I used to think it was random but lately I’ve noticed it somehow fits with what’s going on in my life or something I’m ruminating about.
Not sure when it started but I could do without it for sure. In the time it’s taken me to write this I’ve heard it 30 or 40 times.
Some songs really are emotionally devastating.
I just wanted to see if there’s somebody else so tormented really by songs and voices. Surely I’m not unique.
I’m anxious to read responses, hopefully nobody will be held back because it’s so crazy sounding.