It’s good to talk @nicmger, although these days were at times, a living nightmare… I also recall, praying deeply around the hight of MD, that I would just accept total profound deafness, if the vertigo would just go away, it took me years to accept, my vertigo was gone! Perhaps 4 years after, before, I accepted it was no more, anxiety & stress over the least bit of dizziness or unusually high tinnitus, but eventually, I was emboldened to believe it was no longer present, it was an unbelievable relief! As far as the Ativan goes, if that’s what I took under my tongue, my memory of that time if fairly hazy, I definitely remember taking these tablets, (whether they were called Ativan, I am unsure?) but I didn’t take them for long, they made me very ill, dizziness, blurred vision & constant nausea, (Strangely, almost similar to an actual attack) to me the cure was far worse than the symptoms, so I just rode out each attack without them… An attack for me, could last 20 minutes, but invariably 4 to 8 hours was the norm, a few hours respite, then it would start again, this could be repeated over many days, then suddenly it would stop for no apparent reason, I would then go, a week, a fortnight, perhaps a month, then wham, MD was back with a vengeance, it wasn’t until approximately year 6, that I noticed the attacks were becoming less intense, up until that point, they were very gradually becoming more intense, more frequent, building up to a crescendo, or so it seemed, I was most fortunate to be a member of the “MD Society UK” at that time, we got a monthly newsletter, it wasn’t a massive magazine, but there was a lot of useful information, and you didn’t feel so much on your lonesome! Strange as it may seem ( MD is not believed to be genetic) it doesn’t run in families, although some schools of thought say otherwise, in truth they are really unsure what actually causes MD… My brother was diagnosed last year with MD, the odds must be quite large, there are approximately 120k sufferers with MD in the UK. Cheers Kev 