Hi Catherine;
I was much like you about 8 years ago when I started my journey with hearing loss. I’m pretty sure if you look back in this forum you can find a few posts from way back about my fears. It’s pretty normal to fear the unknown, and it’s also normal - and expected! - to grieve the loss of hearing. (I actually teach a hearing loss course now and make a point of going over the stages of grief with the course attendees.)
When I first started on this journey, I was on an extended maternity leave and had just given up both my RN and Nurse Practitioner licenses in order to stay home and raise my kids. When I told a former colleague about my hearing loss, she essentially said “You’re never going to be able to work again”. Even my ENT at the time told me that it would be difficult to go back to work as a nurse and that I should look into alternate career options. I took those messages home and spent far too long agonizing over their words. I truly believed I was going to go deaf and that I would never work again.
Fast forward 8 years, and my hearing has declined by about 10 dB in each ear. Where I originally had normal-to-mild hearing loss in my left ear, and mild-to-moderate loss in my right, I now have mild-moderate loss in my left and moderate-to-moderately severe loss in my right. But…I also returned to work as a RN a few years ago and am nearly licensed again as a NP. I have a really great pair of hearing aids, a stethoscope which I can use with my hearing aids, and 2 jobs lined up working with my preferred population.
The staff at both clinics were I will be working (also where I did my practicum placements) know that I wear hearing aids and they know that they may need to talk a little bit louder to me/face me directly if I have a cold or allergy symptoms. I also tell my patients that I wear hearing aids. Honestly, nobody seems bothered by this at all! I find quiet talkers are usually happy to speak up. The only resistance I’ve had is with one child who had experienced recent horrific trauma. She just couldn’t speak in a voice I could hear, which is totally reasonable! I offered to let her and her caregiver see the other medical practitioner I was working with but they declined, so we made it work. I gave the little girl my Connect Clip to use as a microphone and we were able to have a good conversation. As it turns out she thought having her own personal microphone was really cool and was thrilled to be able to listen to her own heart and lung sounds, as well as those of her caregiver, using my headphones!
I’ve had more than one staff member at the facilities I’ve done practicums at ask me about hearing loss and share their concerns about their own hearing loss with me. And I always tell them it can be hard to accept hearing loss at the beginning, but once you do, you learn to cope, and you figure out how to adjust to the changes.
Do I ever worry about going fully deaf? Yes! I should already be deaf in my right ear due to the medical condition I have, but for some reason, I’m not. All I can do is live one day at a time. For now I can hear well enough to care for all of the people/patients I love. If that changes one day, I’m sure I will be sad and grieve, but for now, I’m really thankful for the technology that exists and I plan to use any and every piece of equipment that I need until such time as I can no longer work, or I retire.