Hi - I am new to hearing loss, waking up with sudden healing loss 4 months ago in my right ear. My left ear had existing loss from years ago (noise related) and is worse than my right. I am a music producer and composer/mixer, and musician
For me, every hearing test carries an intense fear and anxiety with it, including the hearing tests that are part of the hearing aids fitting process. I am trialing some different models and makes as we speak, meaning this step is necessary. I lock into the thoughts, āwill it be worse? am I going to lose all of my hearing? what if mild to moderate becomes moderate severe, or worse? Would that mean Iām going deaf and sentenced to slowly fade from the world of communication? what if Speech recognition gets worse?ā I know some of this is in the realm of possibility, so Iām not worrying needlessly. At the same time, have a test with my heart beating in my head, and second guessing every tone that I hear or think I hear doesnāt help that process. I know at home, if I play test tones in high end headphones, I sometimes donāt think I hear the tone, but realize when I press stop that I was hearing them, and instantly hear them when I press play again. That, to me, would be an accurate measure to enter in the audiogram, but an audiologist wouldnāt enter that, they would only enter a db amount that I heard right away.
Anyway - i wanted to see if anyone had any strategies or methods of working with this intense anxiety. I have new hearing aids arriving today, and some other trials about to start, and I almost want to just take them off and cancel any other trials and not bother with any of it.
Thanks