It is strange how the emotions vary with time and the situation. I am relatively new to using hearing aids, and my initial reaction was euphoria just to hear birds again. I just assumed that the traffic etc had scared them away. I didn’t realize that I couldn’t hear those frequencies.
When I got the aids, I assumed they would be like spectacles, and miraculously fix all the problems. But I found that I still had difficulty, especially in crowded situations. Luckily I found this forum, which helped me understand the limitations of hearing aids, no matter how expensive they were. I also found that you are also at the mercy of the audiologist, in both their knowledge and their enthusiasm to help fine tune them.
So now after a few months, I have realized that my hearing will never be the best, yet those around me expect me to be able to hear like they do. I often get the question, Have you turned on your hearing aids?
I am not sure if it frustration or depression, but it isn’t pleasant not being able to hear as well as the general population. I actually find the people less tolerant as they expect my assisted hearing to be as good as their hearing.
I do find I have withdrawn to my own little world, where I no longer sit with others, preferring to enjoy the peace and quiet. Conversations are hit and miss, it is both embarrassing and frustrating to keep asking, What was that?
Yet, I have it good! If this is the worst thing to happen to me then I am really fortunate. And I have always been an unsociable type, now I have an excuse to be by myself!